ok so the grados i bought are now not working. literally, in less than a week the rigth driver gave out. it's very weird thogh. like, when i plug them into my computer only the left side makes sounds. when i plug them into my reciever using and asapter, same thing. even with my old iphone with the aux jack. but when i plug them into the ligthning adapter and then my phone, the rigth side makes sounds again. though its noticably quieter than the left, it's bareable up to half volume. past that, the right gets all distorted ina a blown-out sort of way. i contacted grado about it and they said it would be forty dollars to repair. said it probably needs a new driver. my dad agreed that the right driver was blown out. i was hoping it was a wiring issue. i posted about it online and someone who claims to own many grado said it was probably caused by the cables getting twisted, since the earecups can spin freely. i wasn't sure about that, since i had made sure to keep them from doing that. anyway, sucks that in an attempt to save a few dollars, and minimize my consumption of plastics by buying second hand, i know have to put half the cost of a new pair more into them. big bummer, since i was looking at getting a dac or a different larger pair of headphones. basically, that forty plus the cost for me to ship would have better been spent elsewhere. sucks, but this came on the heels of having been offered my job back

was asked if i wanted to work part time at the art asylum again. of course i said yes. twenty hours is half of what i would normally do, so i have a good idea of what to expect from the checks. it's better than nothing. and, when volunteering on saturday, one of the organizers, this was funny, had confused me with someone. he was yelling 'andale mijo' and stuff like that at me. obviously he was joking, so i didn't take offense. in fact, it was funny since i'm more often confused with some type of asian. so this dude is saying that, i'm laughing. i look at him and see he's like, desi, he comes closer and is telling me about how people would say that at his old job. asked if my mom or my dad said that stuff to me. and who did it more. then when i answer he implies that he knows my mom, so it became obvious i was confused with someone else, rather than just him recognizing me as latino or whatever. he soon realizes he has me confused and apologizes. i tell him its fine. then he asks me about myself and how i heard of the event. (we were digging four-plus inches of caked soild on the little drainage canals that run along the curbside of roads) he then offers have me do translating work for the. says they pay twenty to thirty an hour for it. obviously i say yes. this leads me to belive gigs would be about an hour maybe two. so i get offered that then when i get home boss lady texts me about the asylum. iot was a strange twist of fate, to get two little money offers like that. i had bought the last copy of a record store day release of a charli ep that morning, after waking up a bit late, and then made it to the service event i planned to attend. so it was a bunch of good things in quick succesion. followed hat up with the grados not working the next mroning. very strange, but i guess good and bad enerfgies had to balance out

i haven't skated in a minute. also realizing i haven't skated with j in a month. feels odd, but they're working and looks like i will be too

i went on this ride last week, and to keep this short, did eighteen miles at an average of fifteen per hour. i was doing it with some guys that, very clearly, bike harder and i do. their outfits. the fact that i could barely keep up. kept falling behind and they seemed to just be cruising. i considered myself to be better than average, and it may be true, but definitely couldn't keep up. in the first half i was closer. guess that means i just dont have the stamina. need to practice more. most of the rides i do are leisurely, so while i can handle a distance, it's the fifteen miles per hour that wore me out. having to try and keep their pace. i was cooked

i ordered a pair of grado sr80s off ebay for what i would have paid for sr60s on amazon. i'm happy with them. i think they look cool, in a retro sort of way. they sound good too, though i do wish i couldve tried the 60s as well. (i'm typing numbers.... i'll let it slide this time)

i have also started looking at a pair of philips. also open back. they supposedly have a more neutral sound than the grados, but i do enjoy the highs on these. still, may be interested in getting the phillips for the desktop, since they have a swappable aux cord, which means i can replace it with one that comes with a mic. i diy headset. they would have been slightly cheaper, pre-mic cord added cost. i don't want to think about it too much. i'll get them when i do, if i do

biked fourteen miles on monday at like, peak day. i had to pick up some library books. i should've had them sent to the same one, but i picked on library in the heights and one in my neighborhood. i had intended to pick one up earlier than the other, but i kept putting it off and eventually decided to just knock it out in one day. the heights library, a more affluent area, just gave me the book. the fifth ward library, far from affleunt, gave me the book in a bag along with bookmarks and information about how to properly dispove of kitchen grease. a pamphlet, a bag to put grease in, and a plastic scraper to put the grease in the bag. is there some kind of message here? is my neighborhood particularly prone to producing kitchen grease?

i went to a protest at a courthouse last friday. it was an attempt to halt evictions being processed that day. they said to get there at seven a.m. so i had to take the bus aroundd five-thirty to make it on time, which ended up not mattering since nothing really started until almost eight. and i got there before anyone so i walked around the place. i saw some people i recognized from when i've done shifts outside the jail in downtown, but they didn't recognize me. which is fine. it was more of a, i'm leaving just ast they're getting there interaction. i'm just good with faces

anyway the protest stopped nine of twelve hearings. which is good. i'm not denying that. but while people were celebrating, i found it hard to join, because i felt like we failed to an extent. sure, there was a net positive, but those three hearings potentially spell violence for a person or multiple. which, i know that pain, won't get into it, but i know the kind of trauma that can cause. i hate it. so i refused to even clap for myself cause it wasn't enough to me

went to the art asylum today to work in the darkroom with kaijah. he's working on tape covers for some music stuff he's putting out sometime soon. he took a negative of mine and used that to print an image and stuff.... actually i dont care about that right now. all i can think about is how they hired a new person and then i was introduced to them as 'he used to work here' which i was like... what do you mean used to... you know.. im confused. am i out of my art asyklum job? i know that in the past there were multiple people workin. me, nicole, nick, and another girl, forget her name, i suppose four of us could still work, but i just dont see that happening cvonsidering the finanacial implications of the pandemic and even now i just found out that they are getting rid of the teacher store side. i assume the rent cost became untenable... still a sad thing nonetheless. alright imma strop typing. my right hand is tired. i backed out of biking tomorrow morning. made up a lie

don't like how i'm twenty-fourth in the hold line for the new ottessa moshfegh book from earlier this summer. i just want to see if she did plaigiarise olga tokarczuk's novel. i managed to get be first in line for that, though it's a 'larger text' version. i guess that just means it'll be bigger/have more pages. i even checked with my old library and their wait line is about the same. would be easier to buy, but i don't want to do that. i have plenty other things to read as the line shortens

finally got the last part i needed in the mail today so i built the computer and have been spending time making sure i have the files and programs i use on here. it runs pretty well. i spec'd it out to where i could game or edit videos and stuff without much trouble, though i'm not sure how much of that i will actually do. i don't have the attention span for gaming. anyway, it just needs an extra hard drive and maybe a webcam. considered a mic, but that's not really necessary. wasn't that hard to put togehter, but still, i've wanted to build one since high school and i finally got the chance

for anyone that's interested, the build has a ryzen 5 six-core, gtx 1650 super, 16gb ram, and a 240gb ssd. going to add a 2tb hdd sometime later. also i get why people put rgb lights in their towers. looks dark and cavernous in there...

i have to get serious about looking for employment now. that said, my mopther just propsed we take a roadtrip to oregon? which i don't entirely believe is a real thing that dcould happen. but still. i guess the chances are non-zero, so i have to see how serious she was about that

i don't think activists should have clout. like, what would you need that for? i rememebr being asked by my professor irf i considered myself an 'activist'. i said no. don't remember the justification i gave him, but in my head, i knew that a label like that requires a lot more work and dicipline than i had at that moment. so to use it would have felt wrong. even now, i still wouldn't use it. so anyone that has it in their social media bio... i see right through it. i can't be fooled

three to four weeks ago, i was biking to my coworkers and this other biker got a flat right in front of me, as i was waiting at my coworkers spot. he eventually came up to me and asked if i had a spare tube, after trying and failing to patch it, which, i did. i gave it to him and told him to just send me a ferw dollars. i said to send three, even though the tube cost seven. he asked me if i biked a lot. have i said this already? he told me of some days that him and his friends meet up. i was out yesterday with diego. his bike got a flat so we had to take the train to where he parked his car. just so happned to be by where the guy told me his meet up happens. so i see them as i'm riding home and pull up to them. see the guy. he introduces me to everyone else. hands me a beer. we're talking a bit and he tells me about how last week a friend of their got robbed by someone that pulled through the group ride. and like momenets after, the guy who did the stealing pulls up. so the vibes are instantly ruined. and i'm just a bystander here. like i barely met them, so seeing a lot of them on edge was kinda funny. anyway nothing happened and i decided to go home. he told me they meet today too at a bar, but i was too busy getting the comp[uter ready and stuff to even try to make it out there. next time tho

ok i got the new keyboard and it feels a lot better than the other one. not as loud as i thought it was going to be. like, i felt that the click was going to have more of a thud to it

does vanilla even grow in france?

sometimes i think about how unnecessary what i write on here is. that no one will really ever read this or that even if they do, tehy won;t care cause there'e nothing inherently interesting here. sometimes it gets me down a little, but ultimately, i knew all that when i started doing this a few years ago. so it's not the biggest insight

one thing that is bothering me is how the fact that the library has not reopened is a direct result of the city deeming the work and purpose that libraries serve (ie. services that lower income people use freqeuntly) aren't "necessary" enough to put the effor tin to reopen. that the computer access they have is too much of a risk. that something as simple as checking out books through a curbside program at every location isn't necessary. that even just the space they offer to homeless people, considering it's midsummer in texas, is too risky. look, i just want the place that i would nromally work at to reopen, along with the library system. it's what i need to feel normal. and as i see all kinds of businesses and restaraunts and whatever other shit is reopened, i feel that this is down out of unwillingness to serve people. if a library is too risky, why are restaraunts not? why is going to a weekend brunch not deemed as dangerous as going to check out a book?

i just looked into it and a good amount are doing a crubside thing, but not all of them. why? if its a saftey thing, then a lot of other businesses are more 'non-esssential'

i put this back in my bio so that i can just write stuff here and not tweet as much

got a lot of typos cause i'm not worried about that right now

i know sofia attended some car protests out in her part of the country, but now that i saw the fliers for one here, i think they're kinda inaccesbile. like, you need a car to go to one? and gas? a license? insurence? etcetc. and while you can tag along with someone, kinda diminishes the whole 'social distancing' aspect some. i guess the other issue is that the ones that my friend went to were at specific locations. there was even one like that here a month ago or so. at a ice location. but to have it just drive around within the loop, idk, seems like creating noise for the sake of creating noise, which while you could argue that about all protests, at least the ones on foot don't worsen the air quality. at least it's scheduled on a saturday, so that those going out for lunch have a bit of a covid show. even with all this said, i would be open to going, but i'm uninsured and am not taking that risk

i want to get my hair cut by that russian guy in prospect heights. at least i think it was prospect heights

i started buying the components to build a computer to replace my laptop. it'll be a shared with everyone type of deal. real communist and what not. it'll be fine. i hope to have it built by friday, but there is a chance i will have to push it back. i'm typing this on the family computer, which somehow still runs. the keyboard sucks and ios hurting my right wrist. will make this quick

i went looking for baggies but did not find them. the patagonia site says they have them where i went, but i didn't ask. just looked and saw they weren't there. looking around, i was reminded how tennis outfits definietely skew towards women. like, mens outfits areboring and women's are much more aesthetically pleasing. so since i didn't buy the shorts, i spent that money on a new stylus and an anti-static record brush kit. apparently styluses are supposed to be changed regularly? i had mine since i got the turntable four years ago... the needle was all bent. i figured that's why it was sounding rough recently. funny, that money i had set aside to buy myself some k for my birthday. that never happened and now times have changed. more pressing matters...

i submitted some writing to two places and some art to a third place. still waiting to hear back re:art, but have heard back from one of the writing places. they said no, which, if i'm keeping count in my head correctly, i'm zero-for-three. wasn't surprised if i'm honest. it was definitely shorter than a lot of stuff they put out, so i had my doubts cause of that. the content, while i like it, i can see others not caring for it. maybe not enough happens. maybe there's no point to it. i could go back and add some surrealist elelemtns, sure, and maybe that'll maike it more likable, but i probably won't