well i just got my rejection email today. that sucks. i mean, they could've just not said anything, so hearing back at least provides the fact that the wait is over. guess i need to find something else to fixate on (like what moving to mexico was). also suppose i have to write another cover letter again eventually. i hate that

areli had retweeted a set of pictures from some local street photographer where they were all supposedly examples of 'seafoam green' in houston's east end. i liked it at the time to mark it, since there were some peculariatries with the pcitures that i wanted to look into later. one of them was of a church that is down the block from my job. i couldn't think of a time where it looked to be that hue of green. so i passed by it on my way to and from work and saw that, as i was expecting, there wasn't any seafoam green there. the colors were faded, but it was defineitly more grey than green. when looking at the rest of the picture, it became clear that there was some sort of manipulation going on. the white paint of cars also showed a green-ish tint. it could be one of two things. either he shot film and this is just part of the film's color reproduction, or he manipualted the hue either on camera or in post. i'm not syaing that the color wasnrt there in any of the four pics, but it definitely isn't organic in the church one

which cause me to question whether this fact can label the set disinegnuous. i'm on the side that it does, and areli seemed to agree. by disingenouous i mean this: street photography has an element of documentation to it. it should capture a specific moement as it happened. to introduce manipulated elements to the image in order for it to fit a theme would break that, in my opinion. i would argue the same against pictures that oversaturate and overcontrast, so changing hues is definietly included. and while i don't gain anything criticizing these images, especially since i won't do so publicly as a reply, the guy being a leica shooter (i think he's the guy i saw weeks ago at a protest) means i have every right to criticize him.

i applied to a new job this week. a social media editor position so i knwo i can handle what they ask me to do. still, i'm going to brush up on skills and stuff. sucks that i don't have an adobe subscription anymore. that would come in handy right now. want to brush up on indesign and maybe finally explore photoshop. like i can use photo editors i understand yhow to do things, but i've only ever used gimp and it does things differently. i'm trying to manifest this job. since it's remote, i hope to land it and buy a laptop and move to mexico throught the end of the year. i don't know how long remote work will be available, since it would make sense that companies with office leases would want to not lose all that money and woudl prefer to move back in as soon as they can. and i just don't want to be in the states for a while. everything here is draining. i suppose my income would go further too, but i'm not worried about that

i never heard back from the polling places that i applied to but myu friend, who well applied after me, did. if that's not a sign that houston life isn't for me, i don't know what is. i did get my job back and now that works picking up again i kinda miss the not working at all. like all that time to do nothing felt nice, even if it meant time just blurred together. i have to put in twenty hours this week and that's too much!

i finished that book 'drive your blow over the bones of the dead'. i guess i have to wait for the moshfegh book to be available. i could check the library website but i was so late with returning this past one that i'm too anxious to look at how much i've acrued in late fees. i just paid them off too before checking these out. i'm gonna finish the murakami one this week to get that back before it also starts acruing fees

grammarly used to check what i typed on here and point out typos. it doesn't do that anymore which has translated to more typos than in pregvious blog posts pre-blogger redesign. i don't think anyone is actually reading this anymore so it's not an issue i'm putting any stock in. it's only an issue when i go back and read these later and trip up every other sentence

i'm trying to add a photos section to my website. i think it would be cool to have that but i'm bvery impatient. like, i never even bothered to figure out the css to properly format my poetry that currently is available via a file link to google drive. i could just connect the file directly but i'm lazy to even do that... though now i'm havign the idea of adding it to a page like i'm trying to do with photos...

i've made progress with the photos thing. gonna call it for the blog post